can you hear the devil’s dogs howling behind the sound of the rain? they’re calling us, calling us, calling us home. do you feel the prickle of electricity under your skin? here’s where it begins.>
i’m sick of being the one writing things & people into truth. i wish, for once, someone would write me true.>
eventually it will be better but it will still hurt like slow burning & even though you know it will get better…when you’re in it you never see that light.>
we had been searching for worlds & i’d been screaming your name but my lungs were raw, you were no where to be found. the sky changed colours from pink to grey to the end of another tiresome day. my limbs ached with the weight of an existence without you & i could hear them creak loudly with each step i took. everything inside me was fighting its way out, trying to escape their inevitable deaths because without hope there is nothing, nothing, nothing at all.>
i once told a lover about her who in turn told my mother. she called a priest who brought his holy water & crucifixes. what good would that do? they expelled satan from my body. the evil inside me. good verses evil. one can’t exist without the other. what if everyone just was? just skin & bones, words & poems.>
i am from the center of everything.
where are you from? where would you like to be?
when you scream you don’t make a sound. not a shiver. when you scream you scream backwards, straight into your lungs. it hurts worse & worse but no one will ever know. these things, they never make sense. all fragments of thoughts you’d trapped behind a door deep inside your mind. a hollow just for what terrifies you, for what you desire, for what you struggle with. in the hollow they breed & become ever more terrifying. don’t close your eyes.>
we carry our skeletons on the out side. protect me, protect me from what’s inside. protect me from the creature of the land, of the sea. how old are we? we remember the days when the world was untouched. do you remember how the world was, untouched? come live with me, under the water. we’ll hide away from all the dangers, we’ll hide into our shells. isn’t it easier to keep yourself secret. does that keep you safe? retreat into your own world, protect yourself. protect your heart. protect your body. shhhh don’t say a word. we wear our skeleton as armor & our hearts, well, you’ll never see. you could crawl inside of me.>